I am, I've never denied it, or even defended myself when such a statement was ever made. I'm going to clarify something now that I've wanted to clarify for a while, but I guess never really cared enough about to bring up...but as much as you might like it or not, there is a rank order here that all of you need to understand.
Rank1) Me. Because if I can't take care of myself and be happy with myself, than I can't care for and be happy with anyone else.
Rank2) Josh. He is my partner, the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, my center, and basically an extension of myself.
Rank 3) My friends and family. My family (mainly my mother and step father) have done a great deal for me, and so have the individuals whom I keep close to me.

Now, on another note, I am, or try my very best to be as independent as possible. I don't need or ask much of people, I don't even necessarily enjoy being around people for extended periods of time (and that's anyone except Josh, which is obviously why I want to marry him....duh....). I like to figure out how to do things on my own, and most of the time, I like to be on my own. I AM NOT A TEAM PLAYER.
I'm not a typical girl, I don't enjoy shopping for clothes and underwear (unless I'm by myself), I hate having phone conversations, I don't like getting manicures and having my hair done, and I fucking hate the he said, she said bullshit highschool drama...
Next, and this is why the most of you will call me selfish, insensitive, and unkind... There is nothing in life, that I don't see as temporary...because life itself is temporary. So friendships, relationships, careers, EVERYTHING will some day end. Therefore, I don't see the point of any of those things becoming obstacles in the way of my future, my self actualization, and my goals as a person. When all else fails, and I have no one else, the only thing I will have, is myself, and if all I've ever done is live my life according to the expectations and desires of others, I will have NOTHING.
Some day, I will be gone from here. I will not longer live in the same place, or I might die the day after tomorrow when a semi runs me off the highway and my car flips over a guard rail... WHO KNOWS. So don't expect me to stick around forever and hold your hand through life, because I won't. The most important thing for me RIGHT NOW (because that is all there is), is being myself, being true to myself, and experiencing just that. I have my own agenda, my own goals, and nothing and no one can stand in my way and expect me to stop.
Again, another note....On expectations. As you all may know, I don't really have them. Not for my friends and family at least. If I give you 20 dollars, I don't expect it back, I give it because I can afford to at that particular moment. If I help you move on a balls ass hot sunday afternoon when I could be lounging by the pool side, rubbing sun tan lotion all over my sweaty skin, I don't expect you to do the same for me in return. But why not? Isn't that what friends do for each other? No, fuck that! Friends do shit for other friends because they want to make things easier for each other and because they want to be in each other's company. If you want to give me something back in return, I'm not gonna say no...but if you don't want to, I don't really give a shit. No friendship is based upon owing someone something....that isn't a friendship, or any kind of relationship that is in any way healthy....that's what's called a fucking BANK.
Ok, so there it is. That's me in a nutshell...Let me re-cap just in case you didn't get it the first time around...
1) ALL friends and family come after MYSELF and my relationship with Josh.
2) Don't be co-dependent on me, my opinions or the things I choose in life, because I won't be here forever.
3) I'm not gonna expect anything of you, so I hope you can extend me the same courtesy.

There you go...
I really don't know why the lot of you are friends with an egocentric, anti-social, insensitive individual such as myself, when my priorities are obviously not where some of you would like them to be.
But whatever, this is me....and either you like it, or you don't, that's entirely up to you.

Cheers

If I were a month, I would be: October, still nice and warm, but not sweltering
If I were a day of the week, I would be: Wednesday, right in the middle and I know I'm not hung over
If I were a time of day, I would be: 11 PM, party is just getting started
If I were a sea animal, I would be: A Baracuda, the wolves of the sea
If I were a direction, I would be: sideways
If I were a sin, I would be: Sloth
If I were a historical figure I would be: Jesus
If I were a planet, I would be: Pluto (I'd say the sun, but that's not a planet...)
If I were a liquid, I would be: mercury
If I were a stone, I would be: onyx
If I were a tree, I would be: A Willow
If I were a bird, I would be: An Osprey

If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Bird of Paradise flower
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Sunny and warm, but not humid
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: A Chimera
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: A Grand Piano
If I were an animal, I would be: A Wolf
If I were a colour, I would be: Black
If I were an emotion, I would be: Love
If I were a vegetable, I would be: Who whould want that??
If I were a sound, I would be: A heart beat
If I were an element, I would be: Ether

If I were a song, I would be: Happy Phantom by Tori Amos
If I were a movie, I would be: One Perfect Day
If I were a book, I would be written by: George Orwell
If I were a food, I would be: German Pork Roast
If I were a place, I would be: A Secret Garden
If I were a taste, I would be: Sweet and lingering
If I were a scent, I would be: Spring rain
If I were a religion, I would be: Nonexistant
If I were a word, I would be: Ephemeral

If I were a body part, I would be: An eye
If I were a facial expression, I would be: Ò.ô
If I were a subject in school, I would be: Art
If I were a cartoon character, I would be: Tank Girl (Comic book char, but whatever...)
If I were a shape, I would be: a Rhombus
If I were a number, I would be: 667
If I were a piece of jewellery, I would be: An anklet
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: a Lazy-Boy
If I were a car, I would be: A Delorean
If I were an item of clothing, I would be: a garter belt

So yeah, there is the last batch of pics... I still have like, 2 more rolls of BW film and one color roll, but I'mma wait to try my luck with the color until it gets a little warmer outside. I dunno what to try next... anyone wanna toss me some ideas??

New pictures! Not many turned out 'cause I suck and don't know my camera that well yet, but more is to come soon, you know you're anticipating.....Anticipate, damn it!

So I got this wonderful Pentax for christmas, and I just finished a roll of film. Soon there will be updates! New things... You know you wanna see 'em!